Katie Noonan and The Captains

NEVER KNOW YOUR LUCK
k.noonan/t.finn

I see it in your eyes, you’re tired of all the words
words that bind you here
tired, tired of smiling smiles that can’t disguise the pain
each day it feels the same

and I know that you’ve been hurting
and your life has come unstuck
but one thing is for certain
that you never know your luck
that you never know your luck

you came home on a day, like any other day
and he’d written you away
cause life can’t only be about just getting by
I know you want to try

and I know that you’ve been hurting
and your life has come unstuck
but one thing is for certain
that you never know your luck
that you never know your luck

the darkest night always bring a star
a star to guide you home, whatever that may be
your heart, your heart is far too bright to be locked away
in a bitter room of complaint

and I know that you’ve been hurting
and your life has come unstuck
but one thing is for certain
that you never know your luck
that you never know your luck
that you never know, you never know your luck

GLADNESS
k.noonan/t.finn
you stood there still with your clarity
as strong as the highest tree
your bravery seemed endless as you smiled through the tears

I’m frightened of these imaginings
my hearts poised like an eager fist
this violent love knows no bounds
along our winding road

and when you ran at me and hit me
you hit me like a wave
and the world stopped for our embrace
and your smile felt glorious
and the sun shone for both of us
and my eyes filled with gladness, gladness, gladness

you pray to god for serenity
I hope it comes in waves and waves
washing you down
I fear your knowing eyes

I know your scars will never leave
round after round you keep the fight
just please try and hold him
and time will see you through

and when you ran at me and hit me
you hit me like a wave
and the world stopped for our embrace

and your smile felt glorious
and the sun shone for both of us
and my eyes filled with gladness, gladness, gladness

never apologize, there will never be a need
never apologize

and when you ran at me and hit me
you hit me like a wave
and the world stopped for our embrace

and your smile felt glorious
and the sun shone for both of us
and my eyes filled with gladness, gladness, gladness

AFTER THE RAIN
k.noonan/b. mackickhan/s.crichton

I hear words come that I wish stayed unsaid, afraid of failing us
each day digs my roots in your ground, leaves free and loud and the trunk is still

and I will be yours alone until my last breath

with you, my heart wants to open unfold like a book to a child
with you, my heart wants to open and flood like a spring to the ground
with you, my heart wants to be like a door to the sun after the rain

I’m scared of apathy and losing my fist of fight
boredom of safety
I’d like to be dragged kicking and screaming for you

and I will be yours, alone until my last breath

with you, my heart wants to open unfold like a book to a child
with you, my heart wants to open and flood like a spring to the ground
with you, my heart wants to be like a door to the sun after the rain

time hold a weight like an anchor and like a kite
I watch the mother hold the hand like a child and strain with the pain of unraveling
and I will be yours and you mine through times like these and more

with you, my heart wants to open unfold like a book to a child
with you, my heart wants to open and flood like a spring to the ground
with you, my mouth wants to taste all of you like the salt of the sea
with you, my heart wants to be like a door to the sun after the rain

ARRIVAL
k.noonan/a.guirguis

precious time holding now
precious fingers holding on for life

whisper to me, while I hold you
heartbeat pounding pulsing life

space between us blue as oceans
gold as sunshine, red as my blood

you smell like earth, dirt under my nails
love like hunger eating through me

buttoned up on my chest
lie for hours sensing all you are

space between us blue as oceans
gold as sunshine, red as my blood

love like hunger eating through me, eating through me
love like hunger eating through me

calmest power peaceful mother
nurturing you have arrived

cause it’s no longer life alone
I would fight and break my every bone just to see you breathe

space between us blue as oceans
gold as sunshine, red as my blood

SWEET ONE
k.noonan/s.furler/l.mendez

I was down on my luck and you picked me up
I was only a breath from despair

I was down on my luck and you cleaned me up
there was nothing that you couldn’t bear

you dropped your plans, put my head in your hands
and you told me that I would be fine

yes you laid me down, sat with me for hours
and you shared in a pain that  was mine

I’m looking for you
I’ve nothing to lose

come here sweet one, lay down here with me and sing me your tale

I need to sit awhile too and feel your smile and share my day

I’m trying hard to stand, stand here today, stand when my ground feels weak

a great joy has set a cloud and I feel I’m stuck here underneath
I’m looking for you
I’ve nothing to lose

suspicion lies thick as I swim through uncomfortable again
I can’t see you anymore, can you see me?

fear exhausts your breath, just one away from despair
you’re looking out and the mirror seems blank again

up and down, up and down, up and down this ride weighs me down
help me push it away, help me push away

I’m looking for you, I’ve nothing to lose

LITTLE BOYS
k.noonan/c.deyell/t.shapcott
they have bodies like eels
but they splash in the water
out of water which is where they came from
and that is in a way true
except there is no water
more wonderful than the water
of their laughter –
that does not come from their throat
it was from somewhere deep inside
a place you recognize
welling up so you catch your breath
as if even that were precious
but there is no water
more wonderful than the water
of their laughter

I HAD A DRINK TODAY
k.noonan/c.deyell/d.walker

I had a drink today
broke the ice
and the few good things I’d saved leak away

precious things lost to me now, gone
I mean, nobody else could tell

but I knew, and I cried
and now I feel like I don’t belong in this world

time to leave
time to take the final measure
let how it seems so far be true

I’m gonna kiss goodnight
let sleep close over this pain
and in the morning
I’ll maybe see what I can do

I’ll get up in a clean new day
and not bring any shame
I’ll stay clean the whole day through

then we’ll see, then we’ll see
I had a drink today
tomorrow I’m gonna show what I can do

 

COTTON WOOL
k.noonan/j.pyke

I don’t know what it is
but there’s a cloud around today
a cloud that hangs and won’t be shaken easily

and I miss you face
I am less a part of your day
the last time we left you were already here
here inside

but cotton wool won’t do you no good
you need to feel the wind on your face
and I want to hold on to you for dear life
but I’ll let you go

now I’m out of time
I feel like I’m missing out on you
the plan pulls out and I feel like a stranger
without you here

but cotton wool won’t do you no good
you need to feel the wind on your face
and I want to hold on to you for dear life
but I’ll let you go

before I met you
I knew I wanted you so
but now my heart only beats for you

and cotton wool won’t do you no good
you need to feel the wind on your face
and I want to hold on to you for dear life
but I’ll let you go

but cotton wool won’t do you no good
you need to feel the wind on your face
and I want to hold on to you for dear life
but I’ll let you go

GOLDEN
k.noonan

here I lie, surrounded by you
it’s a painting of contentment your love eyes make me feel

I read my book
you sleep by my side
your hand on my thigh
I stumble into you

I can’t explain the smile I smile
the joy I feel waking with you

cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in
cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in

your smile brings me a glow
like a warm drink on a cold, cold night

as you hold me through the night
you fit me like a puzzle
your love of all things of me
I fumble to articulate

I missed your beauty
when I woke alone, alone this morning

cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in
cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in
cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in
cause you make me feel golden
I breathe you in

EMPERORS BOX
k.noonan

applause seems quiet without your voice
I guess I just want to make you proud

we all have our strength to learn
and right or wrong I learn mine

I know you’re alone so much
but never left alone too
I am right here for you
so let your guard down and hang your heavy head
hang your head

and I waited for you
just to say I love you
and I realized too
I can hold you like you held me
and there’s no doubt on this earth
I’ll never completely know you
I will fail you, and you‘ll fail me
but I’ll always love you

admitting it’s hard is not defeat
the emperors will find his new clothes
grace is the only way through
but you’re not alone

and I waited for you
just to say I love you
and I realized too
I can hold you like you held me
and there’s no doubt on this earth
I’ll never completely know you
I will fail you, and you‘ll fail me
but I’ll always love you

yometimes I feel you can’t see me
your words made my ground fall away
you’re the walking wounded alone in thought
but I’ll swim beside you, but no comparisons

and I waited for you
just to say I love you
and I realized too
I can hold you like you held me
and there’s no doubt on this earth
I’ll never completely know you
I will fail you, and you‘ll fail me
but I’ll always love you

TIME
k.noonan

as the face touches the screen
are you allowed to feel joy?
as the pictures imprint your heart
are you allowed to give in?

as the hand of fate hands you
a second chance full of fear and joy
will the sepia filter of loss
allow a little colour through again?
allow a little colour through again?

and time will soften all your blows
time will soothe you in your sleep
and time will gently hold you again

the day of leaving is a day
you will live each and every year
there were no more words to say
but your eyes spoke a thousand more
your eyes spoke a thousand more

and time will soften all your blows
time will soothe you in your sleep
and time will gently hold you again

and time will soften all your blows
time will soothe you in your sleep
time will wash away your guilt
time will set your joy free
and time will soften all your blows
and time will gently hold you again
hold you again

HALF IN WATER
k.noonan/s/hunter/t.shapcott

half in water half in air
half in love and despair
you’ll not settle anywhere

half in water half in air
the sky’s your limit you share
your breath with water everywhere

you will wake in sweat from dreams
you will open the door
you will watch the stars anywhere

but I have nothing to say
but silence will not take me
the kiss is still painless
it wants all there is

because you long to know
the judgement of the stars, the moon
the sun you shiver nights
and catch your death

because you long to know
the judgement of your blood
your seed, your past
you cry till you are out of breath

but you will wake in sweat from dreams
you will open the door
you will watch the star anywhere

but I have nothing to say
but silence will not take me
the kiss is still painless
it wants all there is
but I have nothing to say
but silence will not take me
the kiss is still painless
it wants all there is
it wants all there is

beware the future of the past
beware the loneliness you have lost
beware the loneliness you have lost

RADAR
k.noonan/c.deyell/s.hunter/d.kelly/a.stochansky/a.riley

your shaky intake of breath and I hold mine and I wait and I wait
your voice quivers alone and I want to hold you again

those tired words pound in my ears and I crumble heavy
I feel I want to pull the pin

cause I’m standing here i’m weightless in the rain
no lights on my radar
I’m breathless with the thought that you’re hurting
and I’m not there to hold you

whichever turn I make I feel the judge stands tall and stern
in my dreams you come and you take me out of this blind, this blind city

how do we fit the silence in around this, this noise?

cause I’m standing here i’m weightless in the rain
no lights on my radar
I’m breathless with the thought that you are hurting
and I m not there to hold you

to hold you..

cause I’m standing here i’m weightless in the rain
no lights on my radar
I’m breathless with the thought that you are hurting
and I’m not there to hold you
cause I’m standing here i’m weightless in the rain
and the lights shine like daytime
I’m breathless with the thought that you are hurting
and I’m not there to hold you

to hold you

PAGE ONE
k.noonan/c.deyell/d.walker

here I stand before you my heart raw like a steak in plastic
here I kneel before you my hands open to receive you
plump like a peach your love ripens me, my skin wants to glisten
between your eyes and mine lies a well of beginnings, a blaze of intention

my eyes unzip you as you fall to the floor
I offer all I can here beside you

as the moon falls on the bed and I hear you whisper my name
here we lie receiving the turn, the turn of page one
page one

to savour slowly over time you a feast for me alone
you are the sun to my compass I gaze beside you and i know
this revolution is ours to start as we’re engorged with freedom

your eyes unzip me as we peak at the light through the cracks
you sing me through the night, sing my through the night ‘til dawn

as the moon falls on the bed and I hear you whisper my name
here we lie receiving the turn, the turn of page one
page one

I breathe you in and I bathe in your light
you sing me through the night, sing my through the night ‘til dawn

as the moon falls on the bed and I hear you whisper my name
here we lie receiving the turn, the turn of page one
as the moon falls on the bed and I hear you whisper my name
here we lie receiving the turn, the turn of page one
page one